Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Where I Am

I think I might start again with my YouTube channel, although I don't really know where to begin. Fashion, maybe? Makeup? School? Relationships? Or maybe all?

Anyway, I've been so bored lately so I feel that I have to do something about it. I guess first I will do organizing... mainly because I need to organize my room, haha.

Apart from that, I need to work out more. I've been losing weight because I haven't been so hungry lately, but I need to tone up my arms, abs, and grow an ass.

That's all I have for now, I guess. So have a good one?

Love you

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

German Shepherd Dog - Puppy with Parvo Day 2 of Diagnosis

Last night, he ate rotisserie chicken and rice and drank his own water and a little of Pedialyte.

I was up at 4AM to give him his meds and I gave him some Pedialyte and water.
10AM I gave him another set of his meds and made him food that he ate. I even made it twice for him this morning. Gave him some Pedialyte and water. My mom told me that he did not have diarrhea and just peed a lot. I'm hoping this is a good sign.

12PM I gave him meds again and gave him more rotisserie chicken. Every time I gave him some they were about 1 cup worth. No skin. This time I didn't give rice with it.

--  It's now 12:30 and I just called the vet right now to ask if this was a good sign, he said no. Jack, my GSD, shouldn't be eating any solid food for a few more days as it would induce diarrhea and should just stick with Pedialyte and his meds. So no more chicken and rice.


*sigh.. I thought things were going well, apparently Jack eating could easily backfire on us. So no more food until Friday.

I also give him 3-4 syringes (3cc) of Pedialyte every few minutes. Just to make sure he's hydrated enough. He looks so skinny, I hope things turn up soon.

Update again later

<3

Monday, May 20, 2013

German Shepherd Dog - Puppy With Parvo

Jack, 15 weeks old, pure-bred German Shepherd.

The people I got him from said they took him to get vaccinated 2 weeks ago. I've had him for 2 weeks now and I've been taking him out on walks and hikes. Two days ago, he had diarrhea. My mom didn't tell me. He then was still able to eat food, which he threw up. Last night after I took him for his walk, he drank water when he got home. After a while, he had diarrhea again, but this time it wasn't all liquid. Sorry in advance for the details, but it had little of actual fibrous poop. Which I guess is a semi-good sign. It means that he was able to digest some of the food he ate that morning.

This morning I took him to the vet to get tested for Parvo and he had a strong positive. Which means he's had it for a few days already. His immune system has been trying to fight it off and it's barely taking effect right now.

WHAT IS PARVO:
Parvo-virus is extremely deadly. He must've licked it off the floor, or something that contained the virus. Anyway, this kind of virus affects his intestines and destroys the lining. Hence the bloody diarrhea. They aren't able to digest properly since they have an upset stomach. They will be vomiting and having diarrhea throughout the whole sickness unless given pills from the vet. What kills the dog really is the dehydration. Most of their liquids will come out of their body either from vomiting or the diarrhea. Lack of liquids will lower their heart rate, and stop muscle function. You'll know they're dehydrated if their butt looks really weak. Like they can't really walk properly. That's the muscle weakness from lack of fluids.

WHAT I DID SO FAR:
Took him to the vet, got tested for parvo-virus. They gave him fluids on his back to rehydrate him. He got 3 shots, one was penicillin, the other was vitamin b and the last one I believe was for the nausea. They gave me 3 pills to take him that should last him about 10 days. Endosorb, Metoclopramide, and Amoxycillin. One for diarrhea, nausea, and I'm not sure, but I think the other is for antibiotics. I went to Wal-Mart and bought a thing of Pedialyte. The vet said 3cc every hour, but I think I'll give him 2-3 every few minutes to keep him hydrated.

I've had a puppy before with parvo and he didn't make it. He was a chihuahua and since he was already very small to begin with, it was harder for him to fight it. Not to mention he was also only 4-5 weeks old.

WHAT YOU/I NEED TO CHECK ON:
-Blood sugar
-hydration

Blood sugar:
Helps a lot of with the heart rate. Need to keep his heart pumping. Check the puppy's gums by pressing on it for 10 seconds and letting go. If it turns white and then back to pink, you're good. If it's all white, THAT'S REALLY BAD. Give the puppy Pedialyte and put some honey on his gums. He/she will lick it off and that'll add some sugar into his system. Give him that every 30mins-1hour until regulated.

Hydration:
Check his skin elasticity. If you grab the skin on his back upwards and then let go, it should bounce back. Kind of like the skin on the back of your hand. It'll go right back. If it goes back down slowly, he's dehydrated. Give him Pedialyte. It's loaded with electrolytes and will help him a lot more than not having it. Pedialyte is pretty much the choice of liquid in this whole thing.

The virus lives in the dog's system for about 7 days. It's takes about 5 days for the dog's intestine lining to rebuild itself. So until then, PEDIALYTE IS YOUR BEST FRIEND.
I'm going back to the vet tomorrow to get some fluids in him.

Update you guys then.
-love always

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander.

I've been gone because I've been so exhausted with life. I don't know what happened to me, but I suddenly feel so down and disappointed in myself. I know I can do better. I know better, that's why but for some reason I let it happen worldly reasons.

That's the problem with me, I guess. As a Christian, I'm not supposed to give in to worldly temptations. Drinking, smoking, lust, lies, etc. I know I'm going to be forgiven also, and that already I am forgiven, but it's the shame that hides me. It keeps me in the dark. I hate the dark. I am a child of light. I shouldn't be in the dark.

I'm in fear that what I am doing is not going to cut it. I have to be better. I have to try harder. My faith that tomorrow will come and that I have a God to live for is what keeps me motivated to be a better person. I am certain my God will not fail me, although I keep failing Him. I don't even know where to start.. I guess I just have to start.

My struggle is real and it's killing me. It hurts my heart. My beating heart is feeling constricted with bad stuff. I can't explain better than that. I want to be a good example to my peers, but I'm not. I'm very overwhelmed with the fact that I am "looked up to" that I am put in a pedestal. I wish I wasn't. I wish that I didn't have so much pressure into being someone so good.

If that were the case, my world would be black and white. My love would not be real. My faith would decrease because there is no struggle, right? Where are you guys coming from? I'm scared.

I'm so afraid for my life and the life of the people around me whom I love so much. We all need to step up. I'm so scared. I have to be better! This shouldn't be this way. I'm so scared.

This may be ridiculous, but I'm going to do it anyway.



Please God, hear my cry to You. You are an Almighty God who has power over all. Save me from dying. I know I'm not worthy, but please forgive me. I'm so ashamed and I feel like hiding in a cave. I don't want to hide from You. Set my life on a path towards You. Please forgive my sins against you, free me from the bondages of earthly things. Take me with you. Free my heart. Free us all. Shed your light in this darkness, Lord. I love You most. Show me how to find You. Reside in my soul. Please forgive me, I want to be closer to You. I cheated on You, and I am so ashamed. Please I'm so sorry. Comfort me with Your relentless love. I am Yours! Clean me. Wipe my tears away.
Sincerely,
Yours

Sunday, March 31, 2013

Easter Sunday

I think it's terrible that people immediately prepare for Easter by putting out bunny stuff all over the front of Target or the plastic eggs where it can come apart so you can put chocolate inside it.

I think it's a serious issue when society is being forced to associate actual holidays with stuff that have nothing to do with it. For instance, Easter = bunnies and eggs, Christmas = trees, ornaments, socks, santa.

Actual point of Easter:
Jesus who died on the cross resurrected in his tomb. It was only then that his disciples finally believed that he really was the Son of God. The whole life of Jesus, even though he proved himself over and over again, his disciples continually doubted him. Hence the surprise when they found out he was not in his tomb 3 days after he died.

Easter has nothing to do with bunnies and eggs.