Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander.

I've been gone because I've been so exhausted with life. I don't know what happened to me, but I suddenly feel so down and disappointed in myself. I know I can do better. I know better, that's why but for some reason I let it happen worldly reasons.

That's the problem with me, I guess. As a Christian, I'm not supposed to give in to worldly temptations. Drinking, smoking, lust, lies, etc. I know I'm going to be forgiven also, and that already I am forgiven, but it's the shame that hides me. It keeps me in the dark. I hate the dark. I am a child of light. I shouldn't be in the dark.

I'm in fear that what I am doing is not going to cut it. I have to be better. I have to try harder. My faith that tomorrow will come and that I have a God to live for is what keeps me motivated to be a better person. I am certain my God will not fail me, although I keep failing Him. I don't even know where to start.. I guess I just have to start.

My struggle is real and it's killing me. It hurts my heart. My beating heart is feeling constricted with bad stuff. I can't explain better than that. I want to be a good example to my peers, but I'm not. I'm very overwhelmed with the fact that I am "looked up to" that I am put in a pedestal. I wish I wasn't. I wish that I didn't have so much pressure into being someone so good.

If that were the case, my world would be black and white. My love would not be real. My faith would decrease because there is no struggle, right? Where are you guys coming from? I'm scared.

I'm so afraid for my life and the life of the people around me whom I love so much. We all need to step up. I'm so scared. I have to be better! This shouldn't be this way. I'm so scared.

This may be ridiculous, but I'm going to do it anyway.

Please God, hear my cry to You. You are an Almighty God who has power over all. Save me from dying. I know I'm not worthy, but please forgive me. I'm so ashamed and I feel like hiding in a cave. I don't want to hide from You. Set my life on a path towards You. Please forgive my sins against you, free me from the bondages of earthly things. Take me with you. Free my heart. Free us all. Shed your light in this darkness, Lord. I love You most. Show me how to find You. Reside in my soul. Please forgive me, I want to be closer to You. I cheated on You, and I am so ashamed. Please I'm so sorry. Comfort me with Your relentless love. I am Yours! Clean me. Wipe my tears away.
Sincerely,
Yours

Easter Sunday

I think it's terrible that people immediately prepare for Easter by putting out bunny stuff all over the front of Target or the plastic eggs where it can come apart so you can put chocolate inside it.

I think it's a serious issue when society is being forced to associate actual holidays with stuff that have nothing to do with it. For instance, Easter = bunnies and eggs, Christmas = trees, ornaments, socks, santa.

Actual point of Easter:
Jesus who died on the cross resurrected in his tomb. It was only then that his disciples finally believed that he really was the Son of God. The whole life of Jesus, even though he proved himself over and over again, his disciples continually doubted him. Hence the surprise when they found out he was not in his tomb 3 days after he died.

Easter has nothing to do with bunnies and eggs.

This long break from blogging or writing anything has made me weak. I'm not as interesting as I used to be. Although after reading what I used to write about, I'm kinda glad I'm not in that place anymore. Rereading it is pretty sad. I can almost feel myself feeling sorry for my previous self.

Wait, didn't I say I was done for the night cus I have a busy morning..?

Busy Bee

Good evening, lovers.

Just came from the gym and I was feeling pretty good and I guess now my high is going down. I've been focusing a lot on my stretches lately and I've been proud of what I can do. Although it's not nearly as good as what I used to be able to do. My hope is not gone! I can do this.

Today I was too late to join the zumba class so I did my usual cardio routine. I did only 40 minutes today. 20 on the bike and another 20 on the treadmill. I think people are surprised of my creativity in these machines.. I refuse to limit myself with only running and walking on the treadmill. There are so many things I can do! For example: lunges, knee highs, butt kicks, arabesques, side kicks, sprints, power walking. I encourage you all to be creative when it comes to things like that.

It's been a few weeks clean of meat. When I say meat I mean just chicken, pork, and beef. I still eat seafood. I crave nothing about it! Although I may have spoke too soon. I just realized that I still consume dairy and that, of course, comes from an animal. So close! As far as the actual meat, I don't crave it. My mother cooks meat here at my house and I don't really feel the need to taste or anything. I don't use "extra effort" to say "no" to them. It was that way in the beginning, so I guess if you're gonna make this big of a change, you should have a very strong reason. Having a shallow reason like "weight-loss" is not good enough for you to really stick to it

Some call it a diet, I call it a life style change. Seriously though! Diets are temporary. Diets last only for a few weeks or maybe a few months depending on your will power.. Life style changes are obviously that. A change of life style. I have no plan on eating meat again one day. I like feeling light. I like feeling happy and energized and not dragged down by the heaviness of steak or chicken.

Apart from that, work has completely covered my whole week.
I still go out and hang out with my friends so I'm not a complete loner now, but I do breathe work. I'm always too tired to go to the gym, but I force it. Tired is not a real excuse to not go to the gym so I make it happen. Isn't that the only real way of doing things though? To just do it and not make lame ass excuses like "fatigue" get in the way? I believe in myself. Others don't. But then again, since when did I need others to give me some sort of validation to do anything? ;)

Which reminds me.. lately there has been this irritating negative energy floating around me. It's consistent in highlighting negative things about my life. I want to squish it like a bug. Not that I need to prove myself or exert effort into making that little shit know that I'm not wrong, but I really cannot wait for the day when I am capable of showing that what my plans for in my life are great things. I will refuse to fail. I rebuke anything that is not a positive influence in my life.

With that said, I have a busy morning. Gotta take Brownie to the vet and stop by the bookstore before work. Good night, good luck with life.

-m

Christmas Institute 2012

Family Group: Chases with Wolves
Travis, Jace, Jay R, Karen, Josh, Jojo, Remy, Kristina, Abi, Michael, Jilliane

Merry Christmas To Me!

I finally bough myself a Canon  EOS Rebel T3i! I know this is stupid to say, but I now have a chance to learn how to use it before my little camping trip. Possibly make a few videos here and there. Jay knows how to use cameras since that is his major, so yeah. Awesome! Woo!

Greetings From Earth

Good evening lovers.

I have a few pretty darn cool discoveries this week. First, Fifty Shades of Grey. Umm yeah, you guys! Lol freakin read the crap out of that book. It's not even like a porno, it's just very descriptive... haha. It's a beautiful romance.

Apart from that, I haven't visited the gym in quite some time. I tried, though, to hike up the Culver City Stairs. All 288 steps. Yes, babies. 288 steps lol. I realize now that it's actually not that much. But if you're me and don't utilize the stair master in the gym, then yes. You will die.

Me: death on the 12th step.
Jay: sprints to the top and back down to come get me.
*sigh*

So I thought maybe I don't do well with stairs.. why not try that steep ass hill on Woodley and Plummer? I did exactly that. I know now that I don't do well with inclined anything. I need to use the stair master in the gym. Or the stationary bike thing and put resistance. In fact!! Oh wait, I'll tell you after this next paragraph.

I'm not really all for diet pills. What for, though? Why not just take supplements that aid in better digestion and overall health? Good point, self! I have decided to add Green Coffee Bean Extract to my vitamins. So far I have Green Tea Extract and then Green Coffee Bean Extract. Both which are antioxidants and help with immune systems. And yes, eventually leads to weight-loss with the help of exercise and clean eating, as with other pills.

I did go to the gym today, thanks for reminding me. I was surprised that I could run for such a speed for that long of a time lol. Usually I stop at least 3x during my mile runs, but today, I was all for it :) Then I biked. My goodness my legs feel like jello. I didn't do my arms or anything else in the gym besides stretch and those that I've mentioned. When I got home, though, I did use my 10lb weights and did a few bicep curls. I did a few leg lifts for my pouch then continued on to butt bridges. I don't know what to call these, so I'm just calling it like it is. I also did a few other leg exercises to focus on my butt area. I don't care for huge asses, but I do want a round one lol. I need to do chest exercises also so I can have rounder boobs lol. Gravity does not work with you. I REPEAT: Gravity does not work with you.

For the cherry on top.
Before I skipped the gym, I've lost a total of 10lbs. Then I skipped the gym a few weeks, kill me now, and then I cheated. I ate 2 happy meals and 2 large fries in a span of 2 days. Right after each other. Oh man am I suffering now. I gained 6 pounds back :(

Making up for it.
I drank Kombucha. Not the best tasting. It kind of reminds me of vinegar. I'll do a blog talking about it later on. In short: it's raw, organic, vegan, and good for you.
I also made my own hummus a few days ago. I don't know where it went though. I may have left it in Whole Foods.
Tonight my dinner was at 6pm. After I worked out, I had a glass of Merlot for antioxidants and just so I wouldn't feel so empty in my stomach. Surprisingly I don't feel hungry at all.
It is right now 23:17 yeah I use that kind of time if you don't know what that is, it's 11:17pm and I was thinking of going to sleep early. Early in my terms mean between 12am - 1am. I have a terrible sleeping habit, but I do get a full 8 hours. It's because I wake up late.
I wanted to sleep "early" because tomorrow I wanted to go for a run. Gotta teach myself some discipline.

Plans for tomorrow:
If not the gym, then I have to run somewhere. Maybe from home to Devon-Wood Park.
Grocery shopping. Need some egg whites, greens, etc etc.
Then relax. Possibly clean up my room or something.

Plans for the week:
Work Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday. I have to finish those bank reconciliations.
Monday, doctor's appointment.
Friday, no clue.
Weekend is a blur.

Goals due til next week Sunday: lose the 6lbs I gained while I was stupid.

Healthy eating/clean eating is a lifestyle I want to have. It's not really optional. I see it as mandatory. If I want to live the life I'm meant to live, to enjoy the things I want, to reach my goals, to be happy, I need to be healthy and focused. I promise, no more cheating.

I'm sorry self, I've let us down.

Time to read my book!! Btw, Matt Bomer is gonna be playing Christian Grey in the movie, right? :)

Laters, baby!
-m

My laptop issues

I don't know where to begin.. I took this thing to the Apple Genius Bar so they can figure out what' wrong with it. They said it was getting signal the whole time it was there and blah blah. They said it was ready for me to take it home. I took it home, and I had internet signal for about half hour, then it went away. So now it is currently connected to the ethernet.

Should I buy the new update for it? I'll try the torrent first.

Preoccupied

Disappeared cus I was too busy playing with my new phone. Galaxy SIII is what I got :)

Other than that, I was preoccupied with some unfamiliar territory. Recently I've been presented with some situations that required full attention. Stress has made the ends of my hair split and so I chopped it off :o also I've over compensated (once again) my sadness with "laugh-out-loud" posts on fb.

Example #1:

Oh, it's not funny? Hmm.. I laughed..

Few people liked it, so that boosted up my confidence a bit. Maybe I should be a stand-up comedian? I'd have to come up with more than one "lol" comment though.


Since I now have a front camera on my phone, wanna Tango? :D

My phone issues

My phone revived itself last night. Thank goodness cus I was about to just buy an iPhone 4s lol. Well, I'm still gonna do it, but now I get to buy myself some time :)

Today is my anniversary. We will be celebrating tomorrow instead because he and I will be working all day today.

Other than that, I am currently obsessed with playing the piano. I desire to learn more and more. Also uber thankful that my mom forced me into those piano lessons.

Let's see, today I was feeling very distracted because I had work. This is a great thing, so now I'm not all moping around with an aching body. Although my night was going so well until I some conversation I had about having babies came up. What the.. lol.

For today, and because where I am in my life, a baby is out of the question. I don't care who it is lol, I refuse to get pregnant in this time of my life. There's no better way to kill a conversation than to start talking about me wanting somebody's baby or relationship stuff.

I do love babies though. I'll baby sit for you, play with your baby and stuff, but my own.. that's just wrong timing.

Whatever. My tummy hurts. Bed time for me.

-m

My Day + Christina and Sam

Good evening!

I'm having withdrawal symptoms. My phone is broken and I have no way to get to Instagram and texting peoples. All I have left is my MetroPieCeofShit phone haha... Ahh, ironically enough it is the one that stood by me after all the headache my Verizon has caused me. No biggie. I'm getting my iPhone 5 soon, suckas!! Wooooo :)

Which reminds me, should I pre-order it now? Actually you know what, I'm gonna get the iPhone 4s instead lol. I don't care too much for the iPhone 5 and it's taking forever. I can see my HTC Incredible trying so hard to revive itself. Starting up half way and then turning off :( It's like watching my baby die over and over again..

Today I finally went to the bank to deposit my checks lol. It's been in my purse for like a thousand years I figured it was time I finally let it go. Maybe you're wondering if I finally made it to the gym.. hahaha. I didn't. I had to go to Downtown LA today to meet with some cool folks. Run some errands there and then to Glendale. Afterwards went to Pepboys to buy oil change stuff cus I'm boutta get my oil changed by myself. I'm a big girl now. Nothing too interesting happened to me today.

Oh actually, I'm getting people sick. Woops, sorry guys.

I am pooped!! Good night. I love you. Let's all dance in a circle and be happy.

Listen to this, too. Homegirl is on point!!

-m

Umm...

My room is a huge mess. Clothes everywhere. My laundry is in the hamper and I'm glad it's there. They tend to accumulate all on their own. Shoes everywhere. I see my heels, flats, running shoes, more flats, and a left shoe. I wonder where the right shoe wandered off to..

I really need to put curtains in my room. It's so damn bright every morning. Don't get me wrong, I am all for sunlight and seeing "stars" at night from my bed, but at 8am (when normal people wake up) I am just in the deepest part of my sleep and I hate when the sun wakes me from it. I said "stars" because here in LA you can't really see the stars in the night sky because all the street lights are too bright and not to mention the thick ass layer of fog above us lol. Though I did see a shooting star some time last week. Thousands of them happen every night, but there are only some that we can see.

I finally went to Target today. I bought pink lemonade and a minty blue nail polish. I'm getting sick of these white ones I'm wearing. I'm also feeling very irritable this evening. Oh and I didn't get to go to the gym. I wonder when I'm gonna stop having shitty mood swings. Could it be? Aunt Gemima is visiting? Hmm.. perhaps.

Plans for tomorrow:
-massive cleaning
-gym
-umm go out and do stuff I guess

-m

The thing that reminds me to keep looking forward instead of chasing the past is that if someone wants to be there, they would be. Simple as that.

Wanna know something? Ahh I'm such an idiot. *surprise*

Isn't it weird that you could fool yourself. It's one thing to think lies to yourself, but you can never really believe them since you will always know the truth. I guess it's possible to think it through so much to the point where you've just ended up believing it. I'm just gonna shrug that off.

F you life. Why you gotta be so misleading? Eh I blame myself. Had I been a little more stronger then it wouldn't be this way. By the way, I hate this whole backwards and forwards thing in my head where I have a full-blown argument with just myself. And now I'm typing it on here for the world to witness my insanity.

Does anyone even care at all anymore? I mean for peoples' feelings apart from their own. Or have we all just stopped giving a fuck about each other? I notice that the only reason people would care to involve themselves is if they benefit something from it. Whether it be a striking topic for the next gossip girl, or just for entertainment. I find that there are none, if not close to none, that would really care to help or just lend an ear. That makes my heart sad.

I'm just on my bed. My bed that's full of stuff from yesterday. Clothes, laptop case, notebook, purse, keys. They've all intertwined themselves within my comforter. Yeah, so what if I sleep with a comforter in mid-summer? I can see my hair dryer on the floor and my dog's bed from the corner of my eye. I miss my old dog. Peebo would always know what to do. She would comfort me and let me be myself. Brownie just kinda sits there and if not that, she's always hyper and wanting to play. I guess cus she's still a puppy, right?

I am feeling quite nostalgic. I'm not sure if I'm enjoying it. I refuse to listen to songs from 2006-7 lol. Ahhh! I'm so... gross. My selfishness is so disgusting. Gotta let that one go already, Mon. This is not healthy. Or maybe it is? Is it healthy to be this way? Even for a little while? Maybe it would be a bad thing when it gets to a whole week and still being all emotional. Gotta drown myself in the gym once again. Tomorrow, I'm going to the gym. Maybe I'll go around 8. No, I WILL GO AT 8.

I played the piano again today. Usually I ignore that dust collector, but today was different. I had a lot of things I wanted to play on the piano. I started with a version of "Titanium" by David Guetta and Sia. Then to Adele's "Someone Like You" lol. I continued with Bach. I ended with Sonatina in G Major courtesy of Mr. Ludwig van Beethoven. Attempted Mozart's Sonata 16, but it was obvious then that I needed to practice. I recall playing that when I was in music school, but I was 13 at the time.

When Peebo left, I played the piano every night all night for 2 months. I stopped playing when Brownie was given to me. Hmm, was it that or was it cus my neighbor and I started hanging out at the pool in the middle of the night?



I know that I'm allergic to flowers, but I wish someone would give me some. It's the little stuff that I like, not so much as huge grand gestures, but simple ones that make such a big statement. I love those. I love when I get serenaded, or taken out on a date where the guy feeds you. I like getting kissed at the back of my neck. With that said, Family Guy here I come!

-m

Updates from last night

I'm feeling much better now. Sorry for all that unnecessary display of emotion down there, but I am a girl and I do feel a lot. Often times I feel strongly about something, I will feel the need to blog about it lol.

Got down to the root of things, I do care deeply for him but not in that way anymore. We had our chance at love once before and at the time I was too young to really fully understand much of anything. Now that I'm older I've discovered brand new things in life that I truly enjoy. Like his friendship, for instance. I am glad I have a friend in him because that would be a darn shame if I had that much love for someone once upon a time and suddenly we can't even be friends.

I wonder what the future holds. So many things to wonder about. It's exciting and frightening at the same time. I wonder if he reads my blogs. God I hope not.. lol. How embarrassing. Although he did mention before he saw the decoupage thing. Well anyway, I'm just glad for whatever happened. I'm not sorry that it happened or hoped it was any different. I think it was fine the way it was.

Now down to other things. I am going all out this week on my workouts. I recently discovered I can do pull-ups! So if you can imagine my excitement has just went above the limit. I'm currently hyped up. I have a workout tomorrow morning at 9 and I can't wait to go.

There's nothing more important than knowing why you do the things you do. (He said that to me a few times before, too.) I could not agree more! I have yet to pin point exact reasons for doing things I do. I try really hard to explain myself with the words I know and I hope that I get my point across to those I speak with.

I have to sleep now lovers!
Good night, I love you!
-m

Oh nothing, just awake STILL

What the hell! What is wrong with people!!! :( More importantly, what the hell is wrong with me? Why am I not over this yet.. I tried so hard to forget you and for a while you didn't exist. Then you existed again.. Then now you feel so present.

When we split, I felt like my world fell straight on my face. In fact, my recovery period took longer than the actual relationship. I cried myself to sleep at night, every night. My eyes were constantly puffy. My teachers thought I was doing drugs before coming to first period cus my eyes were always red. I lost weight, a lot of weight. Became desperate for friends and used them as distractions. All I wanted was you. Then after you, all I ever looked for in people were you. What the fuck.

I wish we could re-do things and see how that ends up. I miss you kissing the back of my neck, only you found that spot. Only you could suck me back into this black hole that I somehow escaped. Maybe if I was everything you'd ever want, you'd feel this way about me, too. It's only this time in my life when I feel like a masochist with raging hormones lol. So what, I find humor in this. Someone's gotta.

The Last 2 Days

Your first love, I think will always be that.

Anyway, I was pretty confident in myself only because I knew how hard it was for me to get over the relationship being a bust. Told myself a few times that it was impossible for me to feel anything about anyone. Then I went out there being completely vulnerable (only I didn't know that at the time) and susceptible to all things about him. Isn't it so weird that 5 years later could feel like yesterday? Possibly I am overreacting, and maybe not. I will always feel that connection with him no matter what. I'll also always have that familiar feeling around him. We were each others' first love, at least that's how I understand it. So to me that means that it is impossible for me to forget him. Wow I'm such an emotional wreck lol. I'd feel sorry for myself, but I know I can choose not to feel this way except it seems like I almost enjoy this "cruel and..." crap I forgot what he said word for word.

I guess I just missed him so much. Then I got used to him not being there so I ended up learning to live without him. Cus obviously you can't just "unlove" someone. Duh people, it's not a button..

I thought that it was so cool for us to text and for me not to feel absolutely anything for him. I thought, "I'm so proud of myself! Woo!" *sigh. I'm still proud of myself, regardless but I mean, I gave in so quick -__- stupid connection. Stupid me -_-


and you thought the previous post was serious.. lol

Some Serious Stuff Went Down

My Mac doesn't have internet. I am currently using my dad's hp laptop because this one can pick up wifi. For whatever reason my Mac laptop doesn't pick up wifi signals right now. I will make an appointment with the genius bar for Friday.

Things that happened lately:
Internet ran away from my laptop.
Gained a few pounds. Kill me now. I haven't been going to gym as often as I should because I got really busy with work. I started getting back into it last weekend.
Got a recording set thingy. Also got the recording mic. Just gotta start recording stuff!
Painted my nails white today. It makes me happy to see that I'm trying new things because normally I stay on the safe side of colors. Like nude.

Here are some pictures :

My white nails. They make my hands look tanner than they are lol. They're nice though :)

This is a chick that just wandered into my backyard. There are 2 of them, but the other is hiding inside the grassy area. My neighbor owns a thing of chicken and they come into my yard often. Cute little things. They certainly can run for their lives.

He lost over 20 pounds in 2 1/2 months. He has a very disciplined work out and diet. I'm gonna be following his footsteps this week.

 

 Okay, I'm pooped. Good night folks!

 

-m

Tattoos and Eggs

Last night I was trying to come up with designs for a new tattoo. Something small, not so noticeable, and if someone were to glance at it they would take a second look kinda thing. Which one do you guys like? I think I like the one on the left better cus it's less legible. Looks a little less English than the one on the right. I asked Instagram people and they picked the one on the right. Maybe cus the one on the right is darker? I have yet to find a great placement for this. Wooo!

I made eggs yesterday morning for breakfast :) I feel weird saying "yesterday morning" since I feel like it is supposed to be "this morning." I haven't slept yet, so yeah. Anyway... I kept the yellow in my eggs. I also cooked it differently today. I substituted salt with garlic powder. I don't think those contain salt, but they are pretty salty with a garlicky flavor. Next time I'm gonna try using actual garlic to mix in my eggs. I'm trying to find ways to cut down my sodium because other foods I eat contain sodium already without salt getting added to them.

Also I know the yolk part of the egg on the right looks like it would be really runny, it's actually not. When I cooked my eggs, I put the heat on low and covered the pan so that the top would get steamed instead of me having to flip it. I usually flip my eggs, but they always break and end up looking super fried lol. I like this way better. The yolk part of my egg was cooked perfectly. Nothing was too runny. LOVE IT!

Beddy bed time. I have work manana and today. I will take more pictures of some stuff for tomorrow.

Good night love birds <3
-m

Self Acceptance

Take a breath.

Lately I've been combating my own personal issues within myself and others. I don't understand my Filipino culture where everyone kind of feels the need to impress the people around them. Changing habits to accommodate someone else's insecurities, or even holding yourself back from things that make you happy as a person because other people feel inferior to your happiness.

Since when did everyone's approval mean you are suddenly more happy or successful. You will never be truly happy with yourself or have deep success if you rely on everyone else's opinions.

What's the point of buying that red dress that everyone likes when you love the blue one? You are going to wear that dress the whole party. You'll be smiling at pictures in that dress, dancing around in that dress, and mingling with others in that dress. They will all compliment it and say that you had such great taste and that they think you look so beautiful. You also would be loving all that attention. It's up to you on how you accept others' opinion. You could've also shown up in that blue dress you like so much. Smiling at pictures, dancing, and talking with others. Maybe you'll receive a whole bunch of compliments on how you look that night, or maybe you won't. When you see those pictures of you in that blue dress, you'll know you chose that for yourself. Not because others decided it was the better choice for you. When you remember dancing the night away in your blue dress, you'll know that you were so comfortable moving around in the dress that you chose. While you spoke with others that night, whether they commented negatively or positively about that dress you chose, you will know that they know that they can't change your mind on how you feel about what you choose. There will also be a new found respect for you, from them. You will also find stability and certainty in your decisions knowing that if you were the one that decided, no matter what they say, you will enjoy yourself. People will stop trying to trample you over because they just can't. You and your blue dress wins!

I am encouraging you all to be your own. Pick and chose what you like because you like it! Ditch the pounds because you want to, not because people make you feel uncomfortable or because those people on TV are thin. People who also have their hearts and mind in the right place will become attracted to you. That's why they say, "birds of the same feathers flock together." Next thing you know, you'll be surrounded with friends who are accepting of who you choose to be. You'll be more comfortable with yourself and most of all have self-respect.

At night time when you close your eyes, right before you fall asleep, realize that you are by yourself. You are the only one who is gonna make this work. You get to decide how you feel. Your heart pump its own blood. Finally, be glad! Once you realize what a great gift it is to know that only you can change things about yourself, you will be unbreakable.

I love you!
-m