What the hell! What is wrong with people!!! :( More importantly, what the hell is wrong with me? Why am I not over this yet.. I tried so hard to forget you and for a while you didn't exist. Then you existed again.. Then now you feel so present.
When we split, I felt like my world fell straight on my face. In fact, my recovery period took longer than the actual relationship. I cried myself to sleep at night, every night. My eyes were constantly puffy. My teachers thought I was doing drugs before coming to first period cus my eyes were always red. I lost weight, a lot of weight. Became desperate for friends and used them as distractions. All I wanted was you. Then after you, all I ever looked for in people were you. What the fuck.
I wish we could re-do things and see how that ends up. I miss you kissing the back of my neck, only you found that spot. Only you could suck me back into this black hole that I somehow escaped. Maybe if I was everything you'd ever want, you'd feel this way about me, too. It's only this time in my life when I feel like a masochist with raging hormones lol. So what, I find humor in this. Someone's gotta.
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